Social Media 2020

I always get annoyed by social media, but this year is especially annoying. Yes, I am complaining.

People flipping out over everything involving Covid, people being assholes over making excuses about not supporting the fight against injustice against the oppressed, people looking to argue about politics in full arrogance. So much pointing fingers and so many people trying to put themselves on a higher tier than everyone else.

The Covid thing…people have been arguing over it from the beginning, fighting over masks and poorly adapting to how the world is now changing, just because they want to be ignorant and selfish. The whole quarantine didn’t affect me much because I like staying home, anyways. I do miss the gym and I miss shows, but that’s about it.

Black Lives Matter. I don’t understand how people aren’t getting the concept of this. Maybe they don’t want to get the concept because they don’t want to support it. I am someone who has always had a place in my heart for those who are oppressed, and I can’t stand hearing people grasp for excuses to continue accepting injustice. It’s disgusting to see how many people are revealing ugly sides of themselves right now. You really can’t look at them the same afterwards. But I am not going to stress over anyone I lose respect for. I prefer to have people in my life who believe in acting with kindness. There is a lot of injustice going on in this world right now. Black people being killed by cops, trans people being killed, femicide in Turkey and other countries, children being detained and sexually assaulted, sex trafficking…the list goes in. All of it is so ugly and weighs so heavily that sometimes it’s hard to see what is right in this world. And people are fighting about politics, but I can say Fuck that Cheeto-ass mother fucker, since this is my blog. He’s fucking disgusting. It’s not a surprise that most people who support him, I notice, seem to enjoy acting like trolls. Shit supports shit, I guess.

Speaking of shit, I am tired of most peoples internet behavior. I recently allowed some new people to add me on my social media, and I was quickly reminded why I don’t like most people on social media. Some people are barely tolerable in person, but on social media they’re repulsive! This is really making me look inward, making sure I am more aware of my own actions so I am not seen in this kind of light by others.

One thing I will mention is there are some people I know who have an amazing aura and give off light. They are kind, possess a quiet confidence, they have the ability to share their warmth with others, and they don’t carry themselves egocentrically. I always have respect for people like this and I strive to be that kind of person. When I get annoyed by other peoples personalities, I need to be aware of my own personality and be 100% sure I don’t come off that way.

For example, it’s pretty annoying when people try too hard to project certain images of themselves for others to see. It’s super obvious and a total example of insecurity.

“I want every one to think I am a tough-ass/bad bitch. So therefore, I am going to post a bunch of quotes, images, and related topics so everyone realizes I have this kind of attitude. Being a sarcastic asshole helps build this persona, so I need to put that out there, too. Fuck around and find out lol!”

This is literally what these people think. And it’s so obvious. Every thing is a fucking flex. Everything is for a pat on the back. Everything is for validation. Everything is a chance to upstage others. As annoying as I find this, I will actively be aware that I don’t come off like this. I just need to exist and act. No need to share myself under the best light in excess.

I think I need to unplug myself a little. Or maybe navigate myself towards those people who give off light and learn from their ways.


Two weeks in.

Two weeks in with my new job and all is well so far. My official training has been delayed due to COVID, but I’ve been getting training from the two senior office people. One of those people goes above and beyond to train myself and the other new hire, but the other person prefers to be at his own desk and all of his training is very rushed. I have already figured out who the most helpful people are. I also finally met the supervisor, who had been out for quite a while and is finally back in. I still have yet to get to know her.

I like it so far!

We get paid every two weeks, which will take getting used to because my last job paid weekly. The good thing is my last job still owes me almost 100 pto hours, so they’re still sending me weekly checks until I’m paid off! I also sold my old car!

Ends and Beginnings

My last day at my former job landed on a Thursday. I got to say bye to everyone, but was still sad I was leaving. I felt a bit sentimental during my drive home, but quickly got into vacation mode, as we’d be leaving for Utah early the next morning.

We got up early on Friday and made the long drive to Utah. I loved how simple Interstate 80 is from Nevada to Utah. We arrived at Lagoon Park before sunset. It was amazing! Not only is it a roller coaster park, but it also has camping on the grounds! We set up our tent, made dinner, drank some watery Utah beer, and I dealt blackjack to my boyfriend for fun.

We went to ride coasters the next day and had a great time, despite the heat. The best coaster was Cannibal! There wasn’t very many people so it was easy to get on the rides! We were tired afterwards. We showered, ate, went to lay down in the tent, and somehow still slept even though 4th of July fireworks were still going on.

We drove home the next day and made it in time for me to rest before my first day of work the next day. I woke up early that morning and had plenty of time to get ready for work. My boyfriend already had the day off since that was the plan for both of us until I was given my start date with the new job. I had a nice first day of work! My desk and cubicle are huge! Everyone I met seemed nice!

Sadly, my day turned to shit once I got off work. I was walking to my car and saw I had a text from Matt, saying his favorite dog, Frankie, took a turn for the worst. He was getting old and had health issues, and Matt always feared the day would come. Apparently, Frankie couldn’t walk and he took him to the vet right away and decided it was time. I made it to the vet so I was able to be there to say goodbye. It was heartbreaking. It reminded me of when I said bye to my cat, Isis. And it hurt to see Matt’s heart break. Saying goodbye to your beloved animal is the worst. Nothing can prepare you for it.

I got through my first week of work. I really like it there. I want to learn as much as I can and offer my best. I’m excited that I signed up for my benefits and union. I’m eager to go back to work tomorrow and learn more. I will also be bringing my $5 to join the coffee club.

Today was my first time in four months that I got to go to the gym and do Body Combat! It was in the basketball court room and social distancing markers on the floor were in place. There is only room for 27 people and we didn’t even have that many. We did the class in our masks! I was so happy to be there!

Also, I sold my old car today! I hope the new owner enjoys it! I am glad I can take it off my car insurance now!

Looking forward to work tomorrow and hoping this week goes well!

One week.

So it’s official, I start my new job in one week from today. On Monday. My last day at my current job is this Thursday. I’m ready for it, but I believe I will feel a little sad when the day comes. I’ve been there for so long, I suppose it’s only natural. One of my managers asked me if I would still be interested in doing some side work for them. I’m not opposed to it so she’s keeping me on their payroll.

As for the new job, I passed my background check and my drug test, got the official paperwork signed, and now I start on Monday. Little by little, I have been buying cheap pieces of clothing from the thrift store to somehow create a business casual wardrobe. My favorite outfits to wear are black tank tops and leggings, or maybe a band T-shirt made into a tank top. but I definitely don’t wear a lot of different colors and dress professional. But this time I’m going to, I’m going to fit in with the professional office people. I don’t want them to know anything about my life outside of work. Over the years I found out it’s best that to just stay incognito. Especially if I happen to be working around gossipy nosy people. I hate that. But yes, I’ll definitely be working more on this office wardrobe thing.

One of my favorite people at work, the lady I work in accounting with, bought me this purse as a gift since I’m leaving. It’s definitely not my style and the print is kind of tacky, but I’m definitely going to use it at my new job to go along with my weird style office clothes that’s not anything I’d normally wear.

Between my last day of work in my first day of work, there’s an entire weekend. We are driving to Utah! There’s a roller coaster park over there that is open and practicing social distancing and wearing masks and such. There’s a campground instead of a hotel so we are going to drive over there and have a time. We’re heading back home on Sunday and that’s going to be a very long drive. I hope I get enough sleep before Monday morning because I don’t want to go to work tired.

New car

I got a new car last week. Well it isn’t brand new, but it’s new to me. It’s a 2018 Nissan! And this will be my third blue car! It has a new car smell that I love. It used to be a rental car, and I found out Hertz rental car is selling a bunch of their stock for pretty cheap because business is so bad.

I liked my old car but it’s getting old enough to where I can’t count on it to last long-term. I’ve already had to take it to the shop a few times. It doesn’t run bad, but it was just time to invest in something new that I could count on for years to come. The mileage is low and the price was right. Plus I figured it was best to go get another car before I switch jobs and become a new employee somewhere else.

Speaking of new employee, I got my fingerprints on the third of this month and they said it would take about two weeks to get the background check done. So I have been checking my email for an official offer for the position. I am excited and anxious.

Right now I need to focus on selling my old car. I need to clean it out, and I have never sold a car before, so that might be a little bit complicating.