Well that was short lived

I recently posted about the positive outlook on possibly returning to the gym without my back hurting as much, but I have been disappointed. I did something for work that required me to stand on a hard floor for four hours straight, and my back started to die about halfway in. It was very frustrating. It was like the pain was telling me not to get too brave because it’s not going away any time soon. It felt a bit better later, so I decided to do  Body Combat class that evening, but just modifying the moves to protect by back from any more strain. That was Thursday night and my back hurt the whole weekend.

I kept thinking I need to go back to the gym. I went to the gym three times within a week and didn’t want to lose the work I put in by backing away from going. My back was hurting on Tuesday, but again, I bargained with myself, thinking I could just go and do my best while moving cautiously to protect my painful areas. My back hurt the whole time and it was very angry when I got home. I even had to ice it. Today is a special Valentine’s Day Body Combat class that I really want to attend, but I feel myself getting pushed behind that fear of pain wall that is stopping me from going. It’s so annoying.

I’m not ready to go back to the physical therapist again. I have very little faith that they are actually even helpful. From my experience, all they seem to do is guess what’s wrong and use the least amount of their resources possible, and then have you do little stretches that don’t even work.

Day one of many?

After like two months of no gym, due to my back and stupid body hurting, I finally went to the gym! Yep, first time this year! I went almost a year with my back hurting almost every day, so I have been very reluctant to go to the gym even though it’s been feeling decent recently. Can I just enjoy being mostly painless for just a little while? Well I know I needed to return soon so I can get back to where I want to be. I started off today with a tiny bit of elliptical and a 30 minute Body Combat class. Lisa picked harder tracks to fill that 30 minutes, so it was a challenge. I feel so much heavier now. That extra weight sucks. But hopefully I can return to the gym painlessly to help lose some of the extra pounds. If I feel good tomorrow, I’ll go to the gym again!

That back pain

I never wrote about that visit to the physical therapist.

I complained about my back pain, arthritis, and getting out of shape when I posted about the Tough Mudder and Spartan Race I did. I was expressing how disappointed I was and that they were the weakest races I have ran ever since I started racing in 2014. All because I slowly just stopped going to the gym due to the pain I experience. The lower back pain would discourage me. I would go to Body Combat class with plans to “take it easy”, but I’d still grumble in pain and stretch my back in between each track. It felt disheartening to try doing what I used to do and it would just hurt. Body Pump class was out of the question. It just made my lower back ache. Of course I would go on the elliptical, but it’s just not that fun. I’d like to do all my fun things again.

I’ve gained all my weight back that I had before my fitness journey. My knees bother me. My back started hurting to the point where I got sick of it and went to see a physical therapist. He took a look at me and had me move around a bit, says I have an anterior pelvic tilt and I need to do certain stretches every day to correct it. He said having a desk job for 12 years is a likely cause of the pelvic tilt.

I am wondering if doing squats and dead lifts, without any awareness of the anterior pelvic tilt, is partially what caused the lower back pain. I read that it would make the pelvic tilt worse if you keep arch in your lower back. Maybe that’s what I was doing to aggravate my lower back, causing the arthritis problem. When I am able to do weights again, maybe I should start off with Body Pump class, low weights, and just test out my form to protect my lower back and avoid anterior pelvic tilt.

I am afraid to jinx myself by saying anything, but that particular back pain hasn’t been affecting me for a couple weeks. I had the back pain for almost a year, so of course I am terrified of going to the gym and ending up in pain again. But I NEED to go to the gym. I want my fitness back again. Maybe all I need to do is take baby steps and have a lot of patience.

Spartan Race

I never wrote about that last Spartan Race I did, so I will do that now.

I knew I would have a rough time due to all I’ve been through this year with my physical setbacks, but I did even worse than I imagined. I wanted to quit before I even reached the first mile. I felt so out of shape, nothing like I’ve ever felt before during a race. The worst shape I have ever been in for a race. Mischa wouldn’t let me quit and offered to go at my pace, which was slow. I felt really awful about myself and just made the best of it. We still had fun, but I allowed myself to take it easy. I decided not to register for any more races until my body is acting normal again.

That Tough Mudder I did recently

If you read my last entry prior to the race I did, you’ll know I wasn’t very thrilled about racing, knowing I was concerned about my back pain and pretty much not training at all. I did the race and made the best of it, but I only did the half and not the full. There was obstacles I didn’t do. The rolling hills were a challenge. It was definitely not my best race and I’m okay with it. I am not at my best. I will revisit it when I am in less pain and can get in better shape. Here’s some pictures.

 

This coming Sunday, I have a Spartan Sprint with one of my closest friends that I have done Spartan Races with before, and my guy will be joining us for his first Spartan Race! I am in the same boat, physically, so I am hoping my back is feeling good this coming weekend! I know Spartan Race is very unforgiving because of a lot of the hard obstacles and penalty burpees, but of course I will do my best.

Tough Mudder 2018

I’m doing Tough Mudder on Sunday! I’m both excited and concerned.

tough mudder 2018

I did my first TM in Spring of last year. It was Tough Mudder Half. I enjoyed it so much that I wanted to try a Full race. I volunteered the next day to get a sweet discounted registration. I was supposed to do the Full race a year ago, but it was postponed, due to the awful fires in that area.

At that time, my fitness level was declining because I had been dealing with some abdominal pain issues and it was getting in the way of my training. I ended up getting laparoscopic surgery earlier this year to remove a couple cysts. I lost an ovary and my tubes. The cysts had low malignant potential so they had to go. After I healed from my surgery, I thought I’d be ready to jump back into my training, but I lost a lot of motivation. I think part of it is because I cant do things I used to be able to do when I was training a lot harder. I lost strength and endurance during that time I was nursing pain and focusing on my well being.

It wasn’t only the surgery. This year I had one molar extracted and a root canal on another molar. I kept getting recurring toothaches for both those teeth and tooth pain is way too miserable for me to want to push myself at the gym. I finally got both those teeth dealt with, so this year so far I have gotten rid of a tooth, a nerve, an ovary, and my tubes. All of them were causing me pain and hindering my performance.

There’s one more things that has been causing me pain and I haven’t quite figured out how to deal with it. (Yes, being in my mid 40’s has brought some changes. It wasn’t too long ago that I was wondering why I even pay medical insurance because I never even need to go to the doctor. Well, that changed.) Anyways, I also have arthritis. Sometimes my joints ache in certain areas. It comes and goes in different areas. Sometimes it leaves me alone for a while, and sometimes it stays for a few months. I first experienced it in my hands. One time it affected my feet really bad and the doctor said I probably have plantar fasciitis. But they ended up feeling better after a few months. My latest issue is my lower back. My joints ache and I have pain in my lower back and hip areas. I often feel like I need to pop my lower back. It’s annoying. I haven’t been wanting to lift weights or do any jumping. Sometimes I have good days and I’ll go to the gym, but I have that fear that I am going to annoy my back even further. With that being said, I have not trained properly for this race.

I’m just gonna do the race and be cautious, try to make the best of it. If I can’t do something, or shouldn’t do something, then I won’t. If I end up running a “Weak Mudder” race, then I will just end up doing the race again one day when I am in a better physical position to accept a greater challenge. That’s the best I can do. I hope I surprise myself this weekend without suffering after.